THE WHEEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS

We are right at that point of equal night, equal day, the equinox. The cycle reaches the opposite point from its beginning. What initiated six months ago now exists in relationship to something outside of myself, in relationship to the other. Six months ago was the I AM moment. The beginning. Awareness. Instinct. Emergence. This year that equinox came with Saturn and Neptune together in Aries, already describing something about where we are heading. Three months later, at the summer solstice, the impulse had acquired form. Roots. Identity. Belonging. In the Northern Hemisphere the Sun reached its maximum declination. Now comes the descent. In three months we arrive at the winter solstice, where the outer movement reaches its minimum. Whatever survives becomes seed. We are at that moment the autumn begins at an opposition. In Evolutionary Astrology, the opposition begins the Full Phase. The subjective experience developed through the first half of the cycle encounters objective reality. Almost like a Full Moon. I was born under one. The equinox can be understood as: I meet what my anxieties have created. In spring: What wants to emerge? In autumn: What did that emergence become once it entered relationship with reality? Libra. We enter the descending half of the solar year. The biological world begins moving toward conservation rather than expansion. Energy goes inward. Leaves fall. The movement descends. Something shelters. Something gets released. Something remains. Evolution alternates between outward and inward movement, Yang and Yin, emergence and consolidation. The EA phase model describes that movement clearly. This is annual involution. We just moved through Virgo, discernment. Now Libra asks for equilibrium. What do I want? What do we want? How do desires and needs find a place of integration? The zodiac is its own book. Its own clock about space, time and reality. It shows. Past. Present. Future. Time as space. Cycles inside cycles. The equinox is a coordinate. A change of direction. Look at the four cardinal points and the architecture is there: beginning, culmination, descent, new beginning. And then, only a few days later, the sky repeats the story. The Full Moon on September 26 is in Aries, around 3°. Neptune is there too, retrograde, almost on the same degree. Saturn is retrograde around 12° Aries. Mars, ruler of Aries, is finishing Cancer before entering Leo. Pluto is at the beginning of Aquarius. Uranus is at the beginning of Gemini, Pluto and Uranus remain in trine; Neptune and Pluto in sextile, Neptune and Uranus in sextile too. There is soft geometry in the sky as the cardinal axis is being activated. Mars is also leaving Cancer and squaring Chiron, which has recently moved back into Aries retrograde. Mars rules this Full Moon. The vulnerability of being oneself, of showing one’s own desire, is at stake now, and Mars is doing this from Cancer, from the territory of family, ancestry, belonging and emotional inheritance. What happens when what I want begins to move in a direction that is different from what the family field wants, or from what I have inherited as a way of belonging? I do not have the answer to that. For me, the geometry is different. This Full Moon falls in skip-step with my nodal axis, it activates the cardinal cross around it. The South Node describes an established self-image. The North Node describes the direction of development. So the question for me is very simple: What direction has been trying to reveal itself all year that I can now actually see? It has a lot to do with ancestry. Capricorn. Inheritance. Legacy. Duty. Burden. Responsibility. Guilt. But also, it has a lot to do with opening my heart, pouring all that love into creative forms, and reaching out through my work without creating any expectation of